Hi

Feeling marginally better, had to postpone exams however, am not happy about that :(

I am starved for inspiration *sigh*

I've nearly beaten this thing...

OCD, is a horrid, horrid, mental disease. I am not ashamed however, I have what I have, it's your problem if you're judging me. Over the last three weeks I have been in battle with my mind every day from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, the meds I was given have helped alot but i've had to be the bravest i've ever been.

There is no respite with OCD, there is no where to run or hide, no where to get some rest, your mind is with you all the time and when it goes haywire it is HELL. It is literally hell. You have to face your worst fears and struggle away from the edge all the time.

Right now I can live with it, now and again I have bad episodes but I know that the thoughts aren't real, and that I won't act on them. I am going to CBT on Thursday and hopefully that will help me as well.

I haven't gotten this far without help, I want to thank all those who supported me on stuckinadoorway, OCDUK and Nomorepanic.

Larsa look-a-like

It's no joke, that I love Larsa from Final Fantasy XII, and I just saw his look-a-like on the mitchell and webb *shock*, from 2.38:

A comic :D

An Inspiring Comic for my as yet un-named novel:

Here

Edit: Ugh, I'm still such an English teacher, use the past tense! and if there is more than one "enemy" then use the plural!! plural!!

Questions

You know how much I love to pretend i'm a real writer :D, well here's some questions I stole from an interview hahah... oh i'm so sad :P

When you aren't writing what do you like to do in your spare time?

Surf the net, I find a lot of inspiration out there and it's like my own personal library, listen and study traditional english folk music, read manga/manwha/manhua, listen to audiobooks and podcasts. I love playing video games, my platforms of choice at the PC, playstation and DS, they are a real good source for inspiration, especially anything by Squeenix, I love their twist on the traditional RPG, especially Valkyrie Profile and the Final Fantasy Games.

Who/what would you consider your influences?

Wow that's a hard question! I really look to the classics, I love the atmosphere of Gothic novels, I also get inspiration from fairytales and myths and Legends. I love Tanith's Lee's writing style and her boundless imagination. Pre-Raphaelite art, espically anything by Edward Burne-Jones.I look to history for knowledge and from my studies of the East.

Eh i'm too tired to write anymore, Also did I tell you I have OCD?? yeah apparently okies bye!

Old Novel Trailer

I found this while routing around, it was a book trailer I did for an old novel of mine, the one before 'Hazards' that was my masterpiece.

The Unnamed Novel

As of yet, it has no name. It does however have a semblance of a plot (note: I have only been thinking this up for two days, so don't expect much). Mot is a PRETA, a human made from the bodies of other humans and machinery, neither human nor machine, PRETAs were made to be expendable human resources, used in armies and in dangerous work they are the lowest of the low, they are also stigmatised because they are not born naturally, they are the ultimate Frankenstein's monster, they have no souls.
During the war however, most of the PRETAs were wiped out in a suicide attack to allow the human pilots to escape, some survived and rumours abound about a terrorist faction.

Mot emerged out of the Desert and meets an old Albino Chinese trader in a bar called Fang, taking a liking to Mot, he gives him a ride to the capital of the Empire, where he meets Fang's adopted daughter Durga, a pale faced girl with a withered arm. While walking the streets, Mot meets a man who he at first mistakes for a boy due to his stature, the man is singularly beautiful and finely dressed in the manner of nobility and he later learns this is the eternally young Prince, a man who has never grown fully and rumours abound that he is secretly a PRETA himself. When Mot and Durga attempt to sneak their way into the palace that night, everything changes when Durga is captured by the young Prince.

Characters:

Mot: A PRETA, about 30, brown hair in a ponytail, wistful, witty, with a sort of child-like innocence about the world.

Fang: A sleazy merchant who plays on the Confucius stereotype, has bad teeth, smokes alot, wise-cracks

Durga: A hard as nails girl with a mysterious past, red hair and dark eyes, she is an actress at the Noh theatre, her arm from the elbow is withered like a claw, she wishes more than anything to get her arm replaced with a PRETA arm but laws forbid it.

Vivien Gael XXXX : Prince, studies the Analects like a religion in order to atone for a past sin, looked down upon because of his girly face and short stature, is augustly noble and polite. Falls in love with Durga.

Dieudonne Loic XXXX : Younger brother of Vivien but is actually taller and more manly than he, is set to be the next heir as his brother is overlooked in favour of himself, vain, flamboyant, unintentionally cruel.

Mathieu XXXX XXXX: Older brother of Vivien and Dieudonne, gone missing.

Elizabet: Don't know much about her but she is a noble woman.